I found a homeI always felt some sort of out of place. Now I undrstand why, because this feels like home. Ofcourse I miss the people I love, I am 666 KM away from my original home. But this feels like home, I am no longer an outcast, eventhough it never really botherd me, it still feels better to know you belong somewhere, instead of always feeling as an outcast and observe the people around you.
As an outcast you have a good overview, but it feels peaceful when you don't need to be that aware of yourself and your surrounding. And I have some wonderful friends, where I didn't need to be that aware of myself, but everything is different here.
I blend in with the huge amount of human beings, I still have that feeling of standing out sometimes, but it's accepted to stand out here. It is fine to be who you are. In my hometown most of the people think they know you trough your stories, most of them judge you on the stories they hear for others.
Here are no stories, here your name is just a name, nothing more nothing less. people don't care about your past, people won't judge you on stories that they heard because it doesn't bother them.
This city is beautiful, the people who live here are beautiful. My appartment is beautiful, my internship is wonderfull and I am learning so much. I found the place where I am supposed to be.
I know I will be torned apart between the people I love, and the city I love with all the oppurtunities I need to reach my goal. I will take my time and see what the time brings me.
I am here now and all is good.